i have been running around doing administrative work for scholarship here at school. and wondering why it is so hard working out problems here, and why does it seem i am more vulnerable here than i am at home? and i come to realise the importance of understanding situation, culture, people. not only do i not understand the language, i also can't read between the lines. i can't read situation -when to push and when to fall back. i really on people, and when these people that i think i can really on gives signals that they are bothered, ...then you are very much fu$#ed :-(

right now, i really am feeling not at home, and come to appreciate what "feeling at home" is like. Barcelona, today you suck big time!!