a flow of mellowness... hormonal? I don't know.  it's like all the emotion are turning in to a ball of tangled thread...

She's imperfect but she tries

She is good but she lies
She is hard on herself
She is broken and won't ask for help
She is messy but she's kind
She is lonely most of the time
She is all of this mixed up
And baked in a beautiful pie
She is gone but she used to be mine

It's not what I asked for
Sometimes life just slips in through a back door
And carves out a person
And makes you believe it's all true
And now I've got you
And you're not what I asked for
If I'm honest I know I would give it all back
For a chance to start over
And rewrite an ending or two
For the girl that I knew
 

--Sara Bareilles

Help me to see
Everything fall into place
Wake me from dreaming
No more deceiving
Break these chains

(Free - Corrinne May)

Needing to come back here!

So,...it has been a long ride since we last met here.  I am now in a Mediterranean country as I wanted, and writing my thesis... had paper work done to enter this country, and it was muy dificil to nearly impossible stuff, developed a proposal that was never finished, went for fieldwork, and now back (already about 6 month now) and in the stage of writing...

and analysis, as they go hand-in-hand.  Mmmm...and as far as analysis go, one cannot go anywhere without Econometrics... yes! gosh!  its haunting me again.  The reason I though I would start this blog again, is only due to the fact that I needed to say "Econometrics was only as good as the physical appearance of Pelletier and Thurman". Gosh, missed them!

Affirmation

I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I believe your parents did the best job they knew how to do
I believe that beauty magazines promote low self-esteem
I believe I'm loved when I'm completely by myself alone
I believe in Karma what you give is what you get returned
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've been burned
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I believe your most attractive features are your heart and soul
I believe that family is worth more than money or gold
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair
I believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires
I believe forgiveness is the key to your unhappiness
I believe that wedded bliss negates the need to be undressed
I believe that God does not endorse TV evangelists
I believe in love surviving death into eternity

Seems the more we love
The more we have to learn
And I keep staring into space
Like it somehow has the answer

 [Symphony, Sarah Brightman]

why do you need to label me? why would you want to label me? in a place where we are suppose to question definitions and create new definitions, there are a lot of labeling going on.....